Magic

A Mystic's Surrender

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I want to share something with you about my experience of the year we Westerners call 2018. On many levels it will be just like things you experience, and in many ways it will be different. That’s always true, though, for us humans isn’t it? But there’s both the usual, and then maybe a little less-than-usual.

Often this year I found myself saying “I’m too human…I’m drowning in being too human”. I could have applied that feeling to most of my living life, and that has become a large part of the Awakening journey; a major aspect of what caused the awakening to take place.

Whatever the formula is for feeling that sentiment and just continuing to truck along as humans do, versus feeling that sentiment on the level that literally changes one’s entire world and reality? I remain as uncertain as the next - mostly.

But since I first stated around 2010-2011 that something must be off - that something must not be right in this whole…thing called life - the answers that I didn’t know I was seeking immediately reshaped my core infrastructure into quite supernatural events. And since then there has been no way of going back to the “normal” world. No matter how hard I tried, from a very capable place amongst the living.

Every now and then since that literally game-changing shift began, I go into a Void: a place of not “here” and not “there”. It’s an increasingly comfortable place for me, and one I can easily call Home. The problem with that is in wrestling with being alive, when I know what and where the escape route is; that we don’t have to do any of this life thing and that opting out will definitively not be a punitive gesture.

2018 has been the most magical, manifesting year of my intentional life to date. Movies are made about this much magic! On the basis of “WOW” alone, I can’t imagine life being more worth sticking around for. And yet, I’ve felt “too human” for my own taste. And why is that?

Largely because since 2011 I’ve been able to ride the incredible waves of Universal energies in an exponentially large level of mastery - becoming one, literally, with the Divine in whichever ways we have chosen to call It across cultures and time. But in 2018? It’s as if the off switch was flicked and I was tossed head first back into the cesspool of life that I actually never really loved to begin with.

I may have missed a total of 7 days of my daily meditations this year, and most of those were because I was in shamanic diets that did the work for me 24 hours/day while in the processes of deep self work. Still - how I went from the sensory place of Samadhi on most of my daily meditations for years to barely being able to stay out of thought for 10 minutes of quiet has been part of a very confusing story for an entire year.

Mixed in was a tumultuous go at emotional clearing for weeks, and then small breaks, and then more weeks…all sprinkled with a lot of grinding landscaping work for months, and topped off with grinding interpersonal interactions at least 32 hours/week. You see, this was exactly what I had largely learned to transcend. So why would the Universe call me back to the land of human? What Master has ever knowingly done that?

Maybe many. Maybe most. Who’s to know?

This has been compounded with engaging in another intimate relationship, on top of the previous that I still maintain though not necessarily intimately. Getting to know others on a full-time basis naturally leads to more self-realization, when applied through openness. But still - it’s a relationship and it doesn’t always call for the enlightened approach. It’s human. We are human, no matter our level of consciousness.

So I suppose 2018 has put me deep into the ocean of criticism I’ve long aimed at “gurus”…”masters”. I didn’t know that I wanted such an entrenched education on the questions of “human versus transcendental” that I’ve long shared with many others.

I feel that I am ending my education as 2018 has presented it, and that I don’t know that I’ve done well if we are keeping a grade sheet. But how does one judge that, or justify such a judgment to begin with? Being alive is supposed to be easy, and perhaps few are aware of that in the ways that I am - whoever “I” am, to begin or end with.

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At this pace, I don’t know that I have much more of the mundane livelihood left in me, to be truthful. But in saying that, where does this leave the next steps as “I” am to walk them? It’s as if I was taken back to my entire four years of high school and walked through them all at the speed of only one calendar year. Music included.

Every part of my mind and body feel exasperated, and yet the merger of my mind-body-spirit feels a sense of completion that didn’t exist before. Interestingly, I have a profound love of living that I’ve never before had, likely not even in other lives if I am seeing them correctly. I love people, I love the dramas we can create - do create so masterfully. I love feeling love of varying types. And somehow I love that I’m ending this calendar year sick; just as I began it.

I’m sharing this with you here - a surrender. I’m asking the Universe to guide me out of this at this time and into whatever it is I came to “be”. It is doubtful to be just human, based off of the ways I connect with Universal flow and Truth. And the radar holds a journey to the one place I’ve long felt a need to be in but always get so close to but so far away from: India. Only this time, I really don’t desire to go.

Probably because the shift it is going to bring me, based off of my visions in dreamland this past week, is the answer I’ve sought: how to merge Human and Heaven. In one body-mind-spirit. How to be it All, and to not be straddling one side of the fence to the dismay of the other. I’ve really faced this year the dissent I’ve always had for the Divine, right from January forward and then played back to me through so many people.

As well, I’ve faced the condemnation of the human I’ve had my entire life, by participating in it so deeply again - only vaguely knowing “Me” of the Divine nature. I have felt so lost, my friends, this entire calendar year. Yet - I’ve been gifted so much magic and clear signs of my True Self. I can’t deny this, from even the most sorrowful of places. That is a huge gain, in terms of evolution from Divine Energy to Human Form to recollection of the Divine Self from within the Human Form.

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Here and now, in the continuum humans call time and space, I surrender to the flow intended. I surrender the former hatred of human and humans that I long carried as some act of perceived divine nobility: because no real Master would anything but love deeply every minute, dramatic aspect of this thing called Life.

I also surrender the former disdain for the Divine, from a place of self-hatred due to feeling lost….dualistic. In short, my friends, I surrender to you all my duality. You may have it and do with it what you wish…what humans always do with duality. The same things I have always done with duality. Love/Hate. It is all yours. And if you do not want it? Join me in going into non-duality, where everything is bright and amazing and filled with mirth of the Masters.

I give over the “knowing” I so long felt I had, and open myself to receiving Presence. Just being. Whatever that may mean. And if I am to remain in the body, from this moment forward I call in all the magic that I was only scratching the surface of this past year. Unlimited abundance of partners, money, play, happiness, travel…all of it. I call in Me - the Divine “Me” - that came to show the full evolution from human to Master.

I am here, and I am bowing deeply to you the reader and to you who will never see this. I bow to Me. I bow to Us. And I bow to Life and the Living. I Am Namaste. And I offer it to you, and to the Universe, and to the New we are all creating wherein suffering no longer is the “Way”.

Thank you for being part of my journey. And like a rocket sheds its boosters so it can fly, I am shedding all that launched me into Me, yet not forgetting nor regretting nor dishonoring the fires that lit my departure.

Let’s Play a Game.

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In Love

Melmin - Wind

Do You Know How Magical You Are?

“Hey, look up
Don't make a shadow of yourself
Always shutting out the light
Caught in your own creation”

~Florence and the Machine - ‘Third Eye’

I’ve been studying Magic since the moment I was born. To be more truthful would be to say “since before incarnation”, but that would confuse a majority of the population even more than “since the moment I was born”.

It isn’t that I was aware of this program of study all along; we aren’t taught in traditional education the ways of the Universe. Since just before this year - 2018 - started, I’ve been on the course of remembering…and that has helped me see how much actual magic is in play in our structure.

The straight to the point of it is that magic is what we are - what the “world” and the “universe” are made of. So to be a magician is to be masterful with that knowledge. Maybe we think of David Copperfield or other common celebrity magicians, but what they work with is sleight of hand: I am talking about the Real Magic - the Magic that requires nothing but Presence in order to perform what most consider supernatural events.

These supernatural acts run the course from everyday manifestation to more mythical events such as levitation, telekinesis, telepathy, and so forth. And to perform these requires a different set of values and tools: Kindness, Purity of Heart, Self-Love, Enlightenment…all the things of the real Masters - Krishna, Buddha, Christ, etc.

The thing is that this entire perception we call the world and the universe is made up of projections. The closer we get to the True Heart, the more we watch the solidity of matter dissolve; Time and Space collapse into what may at first feel like Illusion but proves to be the opposite - Time and Space are, in fact, the Illusion. So is matter.

So to master Real Magic, we must first master ourselves. Otherwise we are continuing to spin a web of separation, duality, and all the paradigms that make up the world as most continue to believe in as truth.

The trick of mastering ourselves is to first find our way out of the Illusion; out of the trap. Then we have to experientially work our entire system - which is nothing more than a computer data bank filled with programmed stories - out of the Illusion. While we may have an Awakening begin, the Ascension process is to systematically pull ourselves from the Dream and the drama that are so heavily woven around and within that the mere task of self-removal is inherently like swimming upstream.

Which would lead most minds to ask: Why would anyone want to do that, when to do so would truly be seen as absurd…crazy…insane? To which the answer is simple: insanity is the act of remaining in the dream…in the drama.

I have been spending the past several months working a “real job”, surrounded by “real workers”, and having my body/mind/spirit experience the “real struggle” of a minimum wage job filled with all the usual dramas associated with that world. There is nothing about my physical experience with this undertaking that finds long-term joy from doing so.

And yet, it’s poetic! This endeavor has taught me that there is a very stark difference between choosing a magical reality and being a victim to the magic of others…of the world.

In short, the keys to Being Magic are within our very hands at all times. We only need to allow, to learn Presence, to Believe in ourselves, to be Kind, and to do no harm. Really, the 10 Commandments aren’t useless when applied to the concept of becoming our God Selves…mostly. It all depends on application.

What is funny about the whole thing is, well, all of it. But more specifically is that we are already magic. We’ve always been. The largest magical act we can perform, however, is that of transcendence. Because once we find that portal from the madness of the Illusion, everything becomes our oyster. And we don’t need sleight of hand - the things we become capable of make those magicians look like amateurs and posers.

Is there a responsibility in this True Knowledge? Why don’t you come along and join me and we will talk about it along the way. How do you begin? Contact me for a session…or better yet, a journey of discovery. Click here to begin. Does that sound like Kool-Aid to you? That is your call. But you’ll never know until you try.

Talk to you soon.

In Love

Wind/Melmin the Sorcerer