Heaven On Earth

A Mystic's Surrender

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I want to share something with you about my experience of the year we Westerners call 2018. On many levels it will be just like things you experience, and in many ways it will be different. That’s always true, though, for us humans isn’t it? But there’s both the usual, and then maybe a little less-than-usual.

Often this year I found myself saying “I’m too human…I’m drowning in being too human”. I could have applied that feeling to most of my living life, and that has become a large part of the Awakening journey; a major aspect of what caused the awakening to take place.

Whatever the formula is for feeling that sentiment and just continuing to truck along as humans do, versus feeling that sentiment on the level that literally changes one’s entire world and reality? I remain as uncertain as the next - mostly.

But since I first stated around 2010-2011 that something must be off - that something must not be right in this whole…thing called life - the answers that I didn’t know I was seeking immediately reshaped my core infrastructure into quite supernatural events. And since then there has been no way of going back to the “normal” world. No matter how hard I tried, from a very capable place amongst the living.

Every now and then since that literally game-changing shift began, I go into a Void: a place of not “here” and not “there”. It’s an increasingly comfortable place for me, and one I can easily call Home. The problem with that is in wrestling with being alive, when I know what and where the escape route is; that we don’t have to do any of this life thing and that opting out will definitively not be a punitive gesture.

2018 has been the most magical, manifesting year of my intentional life to date. Movies are made about this much magic! On the basis of “WOW” alone, I can’t imagine life being more worth sticking around for. And yet, I’ve felt “too human” for my own taste. And why is that?

Largely because since 2011 I’ve been able to ride the incredible waves of Universal energies in an exponentially large level of mastery - becoming one, literally, with the Divine in whichever ways we have chosen to call It across cultures and time. But in 2018? It’s as if the off switch was flicked and I was tossed head first back into the cesspool of life that I actually never really loved to begin with.

I may have missed a total of 7 days of my daily meditations this year, and most of those were because I was in shamanic diets that did the work for me 24 hours/day while in the processes of deep self work. Still - how I went from the sensory place of Samadhi on most of my daily meditations for years to barely being able to stay out of thought for 10 minutes of quiet has been part of a very confusing story for an entire year.

Mixed in was a tumultuous go at emotional clearing for weeks, and then small breaks, and then more weeks…all sprinkled with a lot of grinding landscaping work for months, and topped off with grinding interpersonal interactions at least 32 hours/week. You see, this was exactly what I had largely learned to transcend. So why would the Universe call me back to the land of human? What Master has ever knowingly done that?

Maybe many. Maybe most. Who’s to know?

This has been compounded with engaging in another intimate relationship, on top of the previous that I still maintain though not necessarily intimately. Getting to know others on a full-time basis naturally leads to more self-realization, when applied through openness. But still - it’s a relationship and it doesn’t always call for the enlightened approach. It’s human. We are human, no matter our level of consciousness.

So I suppose 2018 has put me deep into the ocean of criticism I’ve long aimed at “gurus”…”masters”. I didn’t know that I wanted such an entrenched education on the questions of “human versus transcendental” that I’ve long shared with many others.

I feel that I am ending my education as 2018 has presented it, and that I don’t know that I’ve done well if we are keeping a grade sheet. But how does one judge that, or justify such a judgment to begin with? Being alive is supposed to be easy, and perhaps few are aware of that in the ways that I am - whoever “I” am, to begin or end with.

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At this pace, I don’t know that I have much more of the mundane livelihood left in me, to be truthful. But in saying that, where does this leave the next steps as “I” am to walk them? It’s as if I was taken back to my entire four years of high school and walked through them all at the speed of only one calendar year. Music included.

Every part of my mind and body feel exasperated, and yet the merger of my mind-body-spirit feels a sense of completion that didn’t exist before. Interestingly, I have a profound love of living that I’ve never before had, likely not even in other lives if I am seeing them correctly. I love people, I love the dramas we can create - do create so masterfully. I love feeling love of varying types. And somehow I love that I’m ending this calendar year sick; just as I began it.

I’m sharing this with you here - a surrender. I’m asking the Universe to guide me out of this at this time and into whatever it is I came to “be”. It is doubtful to be just human, based off of the ways I connect with Universal flow and Truth. And the radar holds a journey to the one place I’ve long felt a need to be in but always get so close to but so far away from: India. Only this time, I really don’t desire to go.

Probably because the shift it is going to bring me, based off of my visions in dreamland this past week, is the answer I’ve sought: how to merge Human and Heaven. In one body-mind-spirit. How to be it All, and to not be straddling one side of the fence to the dismay of the other. I’ve really faced this year the dissent I’ve always had for the Divine, right from January forward and then played back to me through so many people.

As well, I’ve faced the condemnation of the human I’ve had my entire life, by participating in it so deeply again - only vaguely knowing “Me” of the Divine nature. I have felt so lost, my friends, this entire calendar year. Yet - I’ve been gifted so much magic and clear signs of my True Self. I can’t deny this, from even the most sorrowful of places. That is a huge gain, in terms of evolution from Divine Energy to Human Form to recollection of the Divine Self from within the Human Form.

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Here and now, in the continuum humans call time and space, I surrender to the flow intended. I surrender the former hatred of human and humans that I long carried as some act of perceived divine nobility: because no real Master would anything but love deeply every minute, dramatic aspect of this thing called Life.

I also surrender the former disdain for the Divine, from a place of self-hatred due to feeling lost….dualistic. In short, my friends, I surrender to you all my duality. You may have it and do with it what you wish…what humans always do with duality. The same things I have always done with duality. Love/Hate. It is all yours. And if you do not want it? Join me in going into non-duality, where everything is bright and amazing and filled with mirth of the Masters.

I give over the “knowing” I so long felt I had, and open myself to receiving Presence. Just being. Whatever that may mean. And if I am to remain in the body, from this moment forward I call in all the magic that I was only scratching the surface of this past year. Unlimited abundance of partners, money, play, happiness, travel…all of it. I call in Me - the Divine “Me” - that came to show the full evolution from human to Master.

I am here, and I am bowing deeply to you the reader and to you who will never see this. I bow to Me. I bow to Us. And I bow to Life and the Living. I Am Namaste. And I offer it to you, and to the Universe, and to the New we are all creating wherein suffering no longer is the “Way”.

Thank you for being part of my journey. And like a rocket sheds its boosters so it can fly, I am shedding all that launched me into Me, yet not forgetting nor regretting nor dishonoring the fires that lit my departure.

Let’s Play a Game.

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In Love

Melmin - Wind

Yo Shiva

I just came across something I'd shared one year ago this week. I was a few short weeks into a fiery hiatus from the transcendental world I'd fallen deeply into; I was feeling very "human" again.

This is something to share because there is a multi-layered "reality" in our Universe that captures even the most cunning of minds: a "reality" of Illusion. 

I needed to break from my floating outside the physical human game in order to dive back in and discover what I'd been missing in the ability to communicate... To bridge the gap of communication between "Heaven" and Earth. 

We have a tendency to pick one or the other, and almost always purport that we are where we actually are not. 

At the time my approach was pure solar: direct Light shined into one who would come seeking more within. The journey since has revealed an uncovered realm of grieving and Emotionality that I'd not realized in my own Inner work. 

Now, one year later, a more lunar Connection is open in my essence. I can relate to human fears and Emotions like never before. Yet, people still receive the exact same Energy from being near "Me".

The transitions from my own human self into the Divine Self have been rigorous and filled with dramas, traumas, and unfulfilled dreams. As much as any, I've felt hard failures and repeated frustrations. Yet, the Way through has taken over and each perceived dead-end now is a portal to a newer version of "Me". 

Many try to emulate but really why? That's just setting ourselves up for an even harder blow to the ego. 

It's impossible to bypass the journey. In our times, there is only evolution of the ego. And if you're in my Presence, that ego is going to take a beating - even if all I do is smile at you.

Read below if you feel called. And remember that we all cross each other's paths at the right time for specific reasons. What we do with our intersection remains choice - for now.

From an anonymous person I've helped over the years - and she me, of course. Addressed "Yo Shiva". It came on the same day another person addressed me the same way under similar circumstances. I get it. It's hard to have "you" destructed. I get it.

"So here's a realization I had today. I think you must get a LOT of people projecting their shit onto you. These people include me at times. You mirror something that is so.....free and uncontrolled, that it can freak people out. And I know that just by being you, you really change people's lives. It's like seeing someone who pushes boundaries makes people think, "I can do that too." Even though I consider you my friend more than my teacher now, you are still a teacher to me, just by being you. There always comes a time, after the feeling of resistance, that I finally understand, and then I just feel really really grateful. I understand now why you're so clear and unapologetic about your unattachedness to the opinions/encouragement/discouragement etc of others, because you have to be! You play an intense mirror role and get a lot of noise for it. But of course you can handle it.

Thanks for being you, Wind. Seriously. I owe you one 🙏🏼 Which I can only return by being totally me! Which I'm working on. Getting there 😊"


 

Emotionality: A Key to Balancing Sacred Feminine and Sacred Masculine

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We are all Dolphins in a Pod

~Melmin the Sorcerer

Emotions are a fascinating part of the human journey. On one hand we are Sentient Beings, on the other we are Cosmic Beings - far greater than any emotion can capture.

Transcendence is multifaceted - and for some of us transcending the human experience is easy by way of sailing right through them, and for others transcending is going through the fires of the human element; into the blazes of emotions in order to rise as a Phoenix through its ashes.

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However we choose, or have chosen to before incarnation, the larger point is to remain the observer. We do not have to have an immediate understanding of what we are going through, or why. The real nectar of the journey is in embracing what we are experiencing.

 

  *There is nothing more special about embellishing in emotions than not, nor about resisting them more than allowing them. But love and acceptance of our ability to go into their fires as much as to transcend them is a perfect balance whose formula is unique to each.*

 

This Fall Equinox of 2018 is not the first time I have undergone deeply intense emotional fires. It is, however, unique in that the emotions are directly from the place within that has not yet fully balanced the polarity of my Sacred Feminine with my Sacred Masculine.

And that balance of polarities is what the evolution of our Self from individual to OneNess - to Creator - is requiring for those whom have made the commitment to rise from mere Earth Angel to Ascended Master.

How do we know if we’ve chosen this journey? By allowing the flow to run through us rather than resisting what is and what comes. Because we have ALL chosen to evolve through this journey; the rest is simply Choice at each moment.

Kundalini is the Sanskrit word for this Sacred Fire rising within. But it doesn’t have to be the word we use to define the journey from human to meeting our Higher, Divine Selves while still in a body. We also do not have to identify with Tantra, with Shiva, or Shakti…or anything aside from our own unique belief systems.

What we do have to trust is in our innate ability to navigate through what feels like Hell and into the realms of Mastery. We cannot project what that is, or that we have “arrived” at any place of Being. Instead, through observation and allowance we continue to be in the flow of Awakening…of Ascension.

I offer many services, some of which are listed here. These are guided to me through many Divine Channels as direct ways to reach our Higher Selves. And because I am to hold that space, there is no stone unturned in my own journey of understanding all paths to transcendence. Which means that I, too, must intimately know all pains and sufferings in their fullest intensities.

And I must say: The emotionality is real. Yet, it is also a grand illusion. We do not need to suffer. We only need to go deeper into our True Heart Space and merge with our Higher Self. This is OneNess. This is where True Creation begins.

In Love

Wind/Melmin

Uniting the World in OneNess

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"Wind is here for us, bearing the gift of Sight

to See and Know the boundaries that drown out our Light.

Channeling Energy from The Divine Itself,

his hands are his medium, diligently easing our fight and stealth.

 

From Veterans to doctors to lawyers and more

Wind identifies blockages of fear, restraint and gore

he shows us the tools to transform ourselves inside

our once felt barriers now allow us to soar and feel alive.

 

New heights can be achieved – as far as you want to go

Wind creates the space and allows you to grow

bringing Fire, Water, or whatever elements you may need

to align chakras and ignite your Magic, so you too will Know and See.

 

Wind is filled with Magic, Truth, Understanding, and Heart

Energy movement is his Mastery – a beautiful work of pure Art

His goal is to unite the World in OneNess

whereas connecting you to Your Highest Self is the start of that abundance."

~Taylor Ann Hammer, 2018

 

I have spent days, months...years... in the journey of Self Discovery. It wasn't a cognitive choice, to pursue this understanding. The Universe guided and I listened. I still listen, because the mind is always trying to entice the "norm".

Whatever it is that causes us pain, suffering, confusion, homesickness - I understand it all. I've walked those fires through and through. Always the sum returns to one solution: Kindness and Unity. 

We have many choices in this experience of human, and they are all amazing. In the end/beginning, the choice of Kindness and OneNess are the solution to whatever the question.

Eckhart Tolle says "Without a Master you are only suffering". I say without true Self understanding, you are just having a human experience; You are always the Master.

Choices...I help you find the ones that you cannot quite find in your immediate reach, but that are always there right in front of you. Please book a starter session with me here and let's see where it leads.

Eternally

Wind